Archive for September 9th, 2009
Sad Hearts
It’s funny and a little more than a little scary how easily old feelings come back. I ran into No. 1 (remember him?) today. He was standing outside the room I had just come out of, waiting for his class to begin, and the moment I saw his familiar, beautiful face I wanted to wrap my arms around him. I didn’t, of course I didn’t, but it was a close call.
And we chatted briefly, and I think I talked too much because I was just so damn excited to see him. And I’m a little suprised he remembered me, which probably attests to how in the course of wanting him and liking him and pining for him like a schoolgirl (which I am, actually, so the analogy is useless), I’d forgotten that he’d been my friend. I’d noticed it before, how at some point I’d started thinking of him more as a crush than as a friend, which he was first and foremost.
